Met Kh, Huiqi and Brian this morning. So after lunch, Kh left with his friends. Huiqi, Brian and I went to slack (bought Mango strudel! Nice). Shared our stories and yeah, I was the one who did most of the talking, oops! It’s really sad how people analyse you by what I say about us, I am telling the truth! I think you’re the best but well, maybe I am blinded by love. Guess so. Like what Brian said, knowing there is a big, deep hole right in front of me, I still jumped right in, and now I can’t get out. Or worse, I could, but I am so lazy, I am waiting for someone to come save me. But.. if I could, I would have forgotten you long ago, am I not right?

Talked from daylight till the sky went completely dark. Awesome. Hahaha. More of that and with more people next time(s)!

So boy, were you just playing?

I’m like baby, baby, baby noo, I thought you’d always be mine…

I love it whenever I hear Two Is Better Than One, esp when it comes from my phone, because it indicates you texted. But your replies always break me and I hate that. The irony.

Anyway, my friend is going into the same course as you, that is if her appeal doesn’t get through. Sigh.

I couldn’t get into the course I love and really want, and if it wasn’t bad enough, I can’t get into where you are going.

I know I look pissed, frustrated and annoyed. THAT IS BECAUSE I AM.

FML.

Okay, it was very unexpected. It wasn’t too big of a gesture either, I know I overreacted, but I can’t help it! I almost stopped breathing! What else can I do? Haha. Mm.. it felt awesome though, lol, and I’ve never felt like this in a long, long time. Hope things will work out right but we need to take it slowly :)

Idk if you are reading, but if you are, it’d be goddamn embarrassing! Anyway, it’s alright :)

Suddenly I realise, I don’t even have a reason to wait for you. There’s no point in continuing. The connection between us is gone, long gone. We could make it happen again, but I don’t think you would ever want it to be. Everything I do, seems to be telling me to end this. And because, you simply don’t care about me.

I need to let go, move on and get a life. I kept giving myself excuses for why you always don’t talk to me, but now, I think I should stop making ridiculous excuses and forget you. I’ll try. Try harder than I’ve ever tried, although I know it’s so damn mentally challenging.

I need to start afresh, because you are already gone.

Everytime I tell myself not to talk to you, Idk why, I JUST HAVE TO TALK TO YOU. And when I do, I hurt myself again. I said I am easily manipulated by you. I hate it. I hate it so much. And why do I have to talk to you? Who are you to me?